11-year-old me wouldn't believe it if I told her that 20-something-year-old me aimlessly wandered the streets of Singapore on her own 80% of the time, and that she was there primarily to create magical moments that will last for a lifetime with her long-time blondie bestie a.k.a. Taylor Alison Swift. I wouldn't let this one for the books experience slip away just because I am on my own. In Taylor's words, "The scary news is you are on your own now! But the cool news is YOU ARE ON YOUR OWN NOW!".

The journey to this experience wasn't all rainbows and butterflies. I had internal struggles pushing through with this trip. From the onset, I never really thought I'd be able to paint a picture of this beautiful memory. I wasn't actually able to score a ticket during the selling period. I didn't have any code or any connections that would give me access to the ticketing site or would tag me along just in case they have any extras. I tried my very best during that time but I was just out of luck. I was truly heartbroken, especially when I found out that all my close friends had scored tickets from their friends and workmates. 


Me trying to score tickets even though I don't have access codes


Weeks after the ticket selling, I kept looking for re-sellers. Everyone was selling their tickets twice as much as their face value. Everyone was also getting scammed. In short, I might not be able to experience this dream, unless I wanna take the risk of shedding out huge amount of money I didn't have or maybe get scammed. There was no choice. I had to accept the reality.

But the Lord is good, always. He sent a good person who sold the ticket to me at the same price. Too good to be true, might I say. To be honest, it was kind of sketchy at first because the Twitter account where I saw the post does not have any proper tweets or followers at all. Upon conversing with her, she seemed very nice and even agreed to meet up and to sign a contract. I had to do a contract with her because I'd spending a lot for the flight ticket and accommodation. That's no joke if she left me hanging. Funny because we were at the same departure flight and the same row in the airplane! Fate.


Meet up with Oleen and her friend 7 months before the concert


When I got to Singapore, I couldn't stop shedding a tear and thanking the Lord. I even attended the Sunday worship service in Every Nation Singapore just to give the Lord thanks for the protection and provision throughout this trip. I was very anxious about getting inside the stadium because I heard stories about barcodes not working and two people using the same barcodes and both getting kicked out from the stadium. Thankfully, God got my back. 


I was alone most of the time because my friend stayed at her friend's house in Singapore. I stayed in a boutique capsule hostel which was better than I imagined. It was the only reasonably-priced accommodation for a 6-night stay in one of the most expensive countries in Southeast Asia. I booked capsule at 7 Wonders Boutique Hostel at Little India. The capsule was small but the place is neat, and even had free breakfast which works very well for someone who's budget aka me, a solo traveller. The hostel was also just 10-minute walk away from the MRT so it was very convenient for me! Even though I was on my own, I enjoyed every bit of it. I enjoyed the freedom I had just going out and about doing the things I wanted to do without anyone complaining. It was truly one of  the most liberating things I've ever done in my life. 


Eras Tour Singapore 2024


Anyway, a lot has change in me ever since I discovered Taylor Swift singing "I was riding shotgun with my hair undone..." on MYX 17 years ago. While I still am that sentimental and emotional girl in high school, I've grown much more aware and in control of my emotions now more than ever. I've never been a natural all i do is try, try, try~ ðŸ˜Œ☝️ I mean, who cries to sleep at night listening to Invisible and Teardrops on my Guitar anyway just because some average-looking guy in high doesn't like her back? I know her, but I don't want to remember her. 🙄 


In retrospect, despite the cringe, I STILL am just a girl trying to find a place in this world. I don't know what I want so don't ask me! 'cause I'm still trying to figure it out~. It would've been better if I had my friends with me as I celebrate this memorable experience. Some friends were there, but we're just not together in the same show. That's life, I guess? Sometimes, you have to do things on your own. You have to learn to have fun even if you don't have anyone around to share it with. It sounds lonely, but it isn't. It shouldn't be. 


Even if I was on my own, it didn't feel like it. I was literally surrounded with fellow Filipinos. Left, right, front, and back! Everyone was speaking my mother tongue. I even met a Filipina who was on her own too. We were together before we parted ways upon entry to the stadium. I was also embraced and comforted by the memories of my youth. With every lyric and strum of the guitar, Taylor allowed me to experience that whimsical  and magical feeling of being young again. It's just like the good old days in high school whenever I acknowledge the rush and mess of my emotions because there exists a Taylor Swift song that would babysit me and my crazy. I remember not having enough money to buy me Red Tour Manila tickets back in the day. But here I was witnessing every concert era I missed. This was my main character moment. I wish it didn't end.


It was a fun experience. I'm truly grateful that Taylor Swift allowed me to dive into her magic at a young age. She has continuously added sprinkles of fairy dust to my monochromatic life, and I think that's beautiful. Honestly, it would've been okay if I missed this tour. There will definitely be another Taylor Swift concert, but there will never be another Eras Tour that would walk me through certain stages in my life and unearth certain emotions I  felt during those times. 


It's true though that when you lose something, you also gain something. I did gain SO MANY THINGS from this trip; a handful of memories, stories, and lessons that I will keep in the corners of my heart forever. 




While BTS is mostly known for their bops and killer dance moves, what many don't actually know is that they write thought-provoking and comforting songs which lyrics speak volume and cut through the bones. If the general public would only give time and energy to actually dig deeper and read behind their meticulously-written foreign verses, they would understand that the hype their fans give to them isn't just because of their ethereal looks, sultry vocals, or sharp moves. This group have something significantly deeper to offer than just disco dance moves and shining through the city with a little funk and soul. While I came here for their talent and marketed quirkiness, I stayed for the beautiful message and story they continuously tell.


For reference, I listed down some of their comfort songs that really got me through this rough and bumpy 2020. It was hard for me to curate and list them down by numbers because they all mean a lot to me. I tried my best. Most of the songs though are solo BTS songs.



10.  moonchild


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moonchild is one the tracks in RM's second mixtape titled mono.: a playlist. From all the side projects that BTS have done, mono has a very special place in my heart. Much like the entirety of this mixtape, moonchild is the sound of lukewarm water running and dripping through your bare skin as you shower after a long and weary day. It's the sound of free therapy in the dead of a night where monsters and wolves often wander freely in the realm of our consciousness. It's a very honest and vulnerable confession piece that oscillates between loneliness and hope. I'm really amazed by the artistry of RM for all the warm and comforting songs that he's written including this one. 



9. People


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They say that the only thing constant in this world is change. SUGA camouflaged as Agust D perfectly put into beats and verses the accuracy of this famous quotation in one of his songs People from his mixtape D-2.  This song is a gentle reminder for all its listeners that change could be good, it could also be bad but either way life goes on. It's a very introspective song that encapsulates our life decisions and cycles as human beings constantly learning how to navigate our way here on earth. We meet people they stay but sometimes they leave, they change but sometimes they don't, they live on but sometimes they fade away, they create craters in our hearts but sometimes they just dig a hole. There are many more things that can be dissected and discussed from this song. What I mentioned is just an intro. 



8. Interlude: Set me free


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Interlude: Set me free is one of the most fleeting tracks in D-2 in terms of musical duration, but my attachment to it throughout my weakest and weariest WFH phase this year is its complete opposite. This song is structured with rare vocals, repeating lyrics that strike, and dreamy sounds of nature that points out one's longing for escape in this monotonous quarantine life — or perhaps just life in general.  In this song, SUGA became my voice as I literally and figuratively cry for help in this period of time that necessitates putting on pause things that I planned to do and enduring errands that are completely out of my interest. I know I'm speaking for myself but in all honesty this is a track that anyone can easily relate to. 



7. uhgood


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uhgood is another track from RM's mixtape mono. and it's the phonetical translation of the Korean word ì–´ê¸‹ which means "to be off" or "to be out of place" in English. The song is basically RM's monologue in front of a mirror in which he argues to his reflection about his ideal and real self. This song depicts how the high standards and specific goals that we set for ourselves often fails to come into fruition because we only focus on our pace and the people around us. Despite the profession of vulnerability in this song, RM is hopeful to cross the bridge of his ideal and reality; to reach his euphoria by mustering all the confidence and trust that still exist in his heart — to finally believe in his worth. All we need is ourselves. We know it, but sometimes we forget about it. This song is a perfect reminder of our worth as human beings.



6. Trivia æ‰¿: Love


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Oh, another BTS RM track? I guess Kim Namjoon's trademark lyricism just speaks volume to my delicate heart. I have this eccentric attraction to his intelligence that crosses the line beyond academics. Anyways, Trivia æ‰¿: Love is a track from the BTS Love Yourself album series which is written and sung solely by RM. Everyone knows that this man writes lyrics in a way that's nothing short of genius, but in this track he sprinkled more of his artistry with his clever wordplay. It would take me a separate post to discuss the wordplays embedded in each verses of this song so to cut it short, this blog right here perfectly analyzed and discussed his brilliancy. Read it for yourself for some cultural immersion.


On the other note, I like how this pop jazz song abridged the complexity of love. The world continuously messes up the meaning of love that we always confuse it with many different things that it is and it is not. I like how simple yet deep this song is. With the chaos this pandemic has brought to us in a universal and personal level, this song is a fun and gentle reminder of the true meaning why we live here on earth. We live so we love. <3



5. Epiphany


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Epiphany is a song performed solely by BTS Jin which is basically the denouement of one's journey in love. It is a powerful piece of realisation that BTS has carefully and cleverly crafted to depict one's capability for unconditional self-love after losing and investing oneself in a wrong person. The song wholeheartedly talks about how loving oneself can be difficult. But despite its reality, it's the greatest progression a person can ever do in his lifetime. It's not a brand new theme in a song, but as for me, I love it because I've never heard any male artist or group talk about self-love as bold and honest as BTS did with this song. I love the vulnerability attached to it so much.



4. Answer: Love Myself


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Answer: Love Myself is the final track and concluding point in the Disc A of the Love Yourself: Answer album. Much like Epiphany, this song narrates the end battle of the ups and downs in the storyline of the Love Yourself series. It highlights how self-love emerged triumphantly in the struggles of being madly in love with someone when you don't even know how to love yourself. In general, though I've never been into any romantic relationship before, I love how my self-loathing slowly ebbs away whenever I listen to this song and merely hear the words, "You've shown me I have reasons I should love myself". These lines are not grandiose. Its simplicity is what makes it admirable and impressive. 



3. Life Goes On


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Just like what I mentioned in my previous blogpost, this song is basically the central motif of their new album BE. It is a musical form of comfort that got me through on the last quarter of this year. It's a gentle tap on my back; a friendly reminder of what it used to be, what it is, and what awaits in the future. The production of this song is quite unadorned but it complements the lyrics and the kind of energy they want to radiate through it. Lyrically speaking, it truly is a very sentimental song about the universal time paralysis we're enduring right now. The entirety of its lyrics is the actual content of our silent protests written in the pages of our 2020 journal. Although this a newly released song, reading the English translation of it still makes me very emotional. 



2. everythingoes


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First of all, if I could tattoo ì§€ë‚˜ê°€ on my forehead I would because this song just means so much to me. everythingoes is another track from RM's mixtape mono. which emphasises the evanescence of everything that we go through in our lives; the hardships, the pain, and the sorrow. In short, nothing lasts forever — especially those things that drag us in a hell hole. The chanted lines pressed in warm dreamy production are one of the most consoling words I've ever heard this rough 2020. Another gentle reminder for us in this tough world we are living in. I cannot argue with RM when he said this song was too personal for him to actually release as a BTS group song.



1. Magic Shop


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I know all of the songs that I put in this list are my BTS comfort songs, but this one holds a very very special place in my heart. It wouldn't be my most played song on Spotify, if it wasn't the best company I had during my most vulnerable hours this 2020. Magic Shop is a song performed by the entire group but it is written and produced by BTS Jungkook. It's a comfort song purposely written for their fans who are struggling and in pain. 


The word Magic Shop is actually a psychological term that delves into the exploration of the human's hidden thoughts and emotions that are not fully expressed. It's a place where fears are exchanged for happiness. This isn't the first time BTS incorporated psychological themes in their songs. As much as I love those psychological-themed songs, this one is very personal to me because it reminds me of how a figurative door was opened inside my heart when I discovered BTS. This year was tough but discovering BTS made it a little much better. They showed me happiness without compromising my faith.



There are many more BTS comfort songs that didn't make it through this list, but so far these are my ultimates. This year, I love how language didn't become a barrier for me in discovering comforting songs. It's easy to listen and vibe along to a song performed in foreign language, but to actually dive deep into it and actually discover is message is another level. Here's to hoping you'll listen to these songs and find comfort in them as well.



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Words and main artwork by collene.


collene is 24-year-old self-proclaimed creative old soul who is deeply fascinated by the beauty of music, arts, books and poetry. Catch her wearing her bluetooth earphones on with either a phone or book on hand.





BTS is known to be a group that releases contents not just for the sake of it. They're one of the very few Korean groups which most if not all members participate in the production and creative process of their releases. Moreover, it is not a hidden fact that BTS lay down too many cyphers, wordplays, connections, and references on their materials. Hence, no one can blame their legion of fans called ARMY if they read and put too much meaning into the title of BTS's new album the day it was announced. 


But perhaps this time, BTS just want their new material to "BE" as it is.


BE: a verb that simply means to exist, occur, and take place. It is used with present participle to form continuous tenses.  It is also the title of the newly released album of BTS under Big Hit Entertainment and Columbia Records. Many theories from the ARMY surfaced online about the meaning behind the album title. But in overview, perhaps it can be assumed that BE just simply means to exist at the moment because life goes on no matter what. 


True enough, the members revealed in their press conference that the tone of this new album explores existing with their deep ruminations and subtle frustrations about the effects of the pandemic in their lives. Although some critics may find the idea of their title track "Life Goes On" a bit problematic as it can convey a message hinged on toxic positivity, the reality of its denotation can't be denied. Life really goes on  and BTS just want to use their platform and influence to spread hope and encourage people during these tough times. Through this album, the goal is to let people know that BTS, despite being global icons, are similar to us. They're also just normal guys holding onto something that's quite uncertain, doing as much as they can to get by while waiting for to time to unfreeze.


Since this new album is quite introspective and personal, especially knowing the fact that ALL OF THE MEMBERS took part in the production of it, I wanted to put into words my honest and personal track by track review of the album after looping it for the entire day. The album consists of eight tracks, including their Billboard no. 1 hit "Dynamite". I already did my personal review of Dynamite so I won't be including it in this review anymore, along with Skit.


1. Life Goes On


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'Life Goes On'  the central motif of the album  is a musical form of comfort. It's a gentle tap on our back; a friendly reminder of what it used to be, what it is, and what awaits in the future. The production of this song is quite unadorned but it complements the lyrics and the kind of energy they want to radiate through it. Its soft and soothing beat makes it a perfect song to jam along during campfires. 


Lyrically speaking, it truly is a very sentimental song about the universal time paralysis we're enduring right now. The chorus which starts at "like an echo in the forest, the day will come as if nothing happened, yeah life goes on" is easy to remember even in just one listen. The entirety of its lyrics is the actual content of our silent protests written in the pages of our 2020 journals.


Furthermore, since this is the second single from the album, a music video directed by Jeon Jungkook was also released at the same time. I can't explain how easily a mere music video can elicit a certain emotion in me. There were a number of scenes that I personally love; the introduction scene of Jungkook and Jimin, the moment when V glanced at a stadium while driving, and the living room scene where they were just having fun. The latter simply represents how the entirety of humanity is getting by during this lockdown.

However, steering the point of view of this music video to Jin's perspective is what stood out and made me more emotional. There's a part where Jin was closing his eyes and all the members were sleeping at the background while he was singing "close your eyes for a moment, here, hold my hand lets run to the future". Suddenly, the scene transitions to him glancing over the members as they sang in unison in an empty arena. If you know what I mean, you know it. Someday, someday.


In addition, a huge congratulations to Jungkook for directing this music video. It's a GCF masterpiece featuring all the members with an extremely beautiful music bed.


2. Fly To My Room

             


'Fly To My Room' is an alternative, 90s R&B track from Jimin, V, SUGA and J-Hope. It's a song about being imprisoned in the four walls of our abode, and how home has terribly lost its sense of purpose and comfort over a dreadful period of time. It's a very accurate encapsulation of the things everyone is doing right now in order to cope with this pandemic life. I love how every word they uttered easily resonated to me when I searched its English translation. My favorite line goes like "the room is too small to contain my dream". All the plans we've listed down on our planner when the year started were either put to a halt or tossed away in a bin since the pandemic started. Hence, the lyrics I mentioned perfectly summarises the feeling of resentment of all the dreamers out there  — including me.


Sonically speaking, I love the beat drops and its sustenance. One thing I noticed on its music production though is how the beat was on loop throughout the song. Although there are noticeable instruments that are inserted once in a while, the bass beat and snares on loop are specifically the ones prominent to me in the entirety of it. This thought led me into a theory that even the production of the song could somehow be a representation of us doing things on loop this entire quarantine. I'm also picturing them singing this song out of weariness. It's like they are actually bored of everything and they're just sitting on the couch while singing their frustrations out. I mean, same?

3. Blue and Grey




While BTS is mostly known for dropping bops with killer dance moves, it's also good to be fed with heart-wrenching ballads every once in a while — and "Blue and Grey" is that track from this albumDuring their press conference, V mentioned that this track radiates a gloomy vibe that can easily evoke emotions. Listening to it now, I can say that he was true to his words. It's not a track that can become an instant mass favorite on its first play, but when you put it on loop and read the English translation of its lyrics, it will make you ponder about life and eventually just cry. It's a very promising and well-written song.


If I'm getting the translation right, this song is very dark, introspective, and sensitive as it wanders the reality of anxiety and sadness. The anxiety and sadness could be the effect of being locked down with uncertainty or losing connections and loved ones because of the pandemic, they could also be an existing feeling that just resurfaced and was recently put to a spotlight, or they could be just anxiety and sadness in general. It depends on the situation and interpretation of the songwriter and the listener.


Despite the dark poetry pressed in each verses, the occasional acoustic strums and light beat gives off a very warm feeling of comfort. My favorite line goes like, "Don't tell you're okay because you aren't". I like it because it's very true and straightforward. It's just an honest confession of one's feelings of frustrations and sadness. On the other note, the butter-smooth vocals of BTS in this song is also very impressive especially that of V and Jimin's. The deep baritone of V and the countertenor vocals of Jimin perfectly complement each other. This makes the song even more ethereal and comforting. 


In addition, it was mentioned during their press conference that this track was supposed to be included on V's mixtape. However, after further deliberation with the other members they decided to put it on this album instead.


4. Telepathy


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Like their Billboard no. 1 hit Dynamite, "Telepathy" is another disco-pop track from this album. After a quick breather from "Skit" which is a raw conversation of BTS when they received the news about Billboard Hot 100, this track is the prelude of the serotonin boosters curated in this album. On the surface level, it is extremely groovy and dance-inducing that it could be mistaken as a disco song about merely having fun. However, when you zoom in to its lyrics, you'll figure out that this is an intimate message that BTS want to share with their fans. 


Many outdoor activities and gatherings were put to a halt during this pandemic. Thus, all their scheduled onsite concerts and appearances were cancelled. Their performances then has become pre-recorded and their concerts were all held online. Through this song, BTS share their musings about temporarily not being able to see and connect with their fans physically. However, the relationship they've build with the ARMY is so strong that even if they can't connect through sensory perception and physical interaction, there's a universal energy magnifying both ends together. It's like an invisible red string. Hence, the title Telepathy. "Even though we're far away now, our hearts are still the same."


5. Dis-ease


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If "Telepathy" stepped on the pedal to boost the energy of this album, then "Dis-ease" accelerated it even more. Listening to this reminds me of the old-school hip-hop Bangtan tracks and also something that we could possibly hear from another J-Hope mixtape. During their press conference, J-Hope reveals that this song is about the disease of the profession of artists like them during these uncertain times. On the other note, the latter part of the song suggests a message of hope.


It was also mentioned during their press conference that this song parallels two different concepts. The Korean word ë³‘ translates to "disease" but J-hope originally wrote the song title as "dis-ease" in which the English prefix "dis" means removing something specific. Thus, connecting "dis" and "ease" together means lack of comfort. It's really kind of mind-blowing how they always come up with wordplays in their songs.


Sonically speaking, it is a well-mixed dance-inducing old-school hip-hop song that I would put on loop on Spotify. I also love how it started with the sound of yawning and then they immediately go on ranting their discomfort about their situation now. The only thing that's quite unsatisfying for me with this track is that I find the beat of the song's bridge a bit generic. Some people loved it. I guess it's a matter of preference but perhaps I could get used to it especially knowing that Jimin wrote its lyrics in just 3-4 minutes.


6. Stay


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When they announced the track list of the album, I immediately thought that this song would be a very soft and sentimental piano-heavy ballad. The beginning of the song suggests that kind of energy, but it turns out to be the opposite as the song progresses and the beat drops in the chorus. Stay is a unit song from Jungkook, Jin, and RM. It's a marriage of their EDM songs "So What" and "Best of Me". To be honest, I would've loved it even more if they listed this as the last track of the album. Its funky EDM production suggests that it is a perfect last hurray for the roller coaster of emotion BTS has put its listeners through. Anyway, I'd still like to think of it as the encore, and Dynamite as a bonus track as it is the only track from the album that is fully-written in English. 


EDM is not my cup of tea but I could get used to it sometimes especially when I do love the artists who wrote, produced, and performed it. Aside from I love the artists involved in the creative process of this EDM song, there's no denying that this song is really well-mixed and produced. When I first heard it, I thought of how this is something that we could possibly hear from Jungkook's mixtape. Simply put, it's his cup of tea. My theory was proven correct when  Jungkook explained in their V-Live that it was originally intended to be a part of his mixtape as the last track (I told you, it's a good last hurray track). However, they decided to put it on the album instead.


In addition, just like Telepathy, Stay is another personal message of BTS to their ARMY. Despite the draggy period of not being able to connect with each other physically, BTS believe that ARMY will always stay for them until everything goes back to normal.




Overall, I'll give this album a 5 out of 5 stars. It's not because I love them, it's because, YES, I do love them. The flow of the songs and the message pressed through the entirety of it perfectly encapsulate the deep ruminations and frustrations of the pandemic life; one moment everything is okay, the next moment you are drowning with sadness, and then brimming with overwhelming joy again the other minute. The musical curation is just very timely and relatable.


However, it's funny though how up until now BTS is still labeled as "K-Pop" when this album alone and the trail of other releases they have on their belt are very diverse. People and critics shouldn't limit their genre to just pop because their range is insanely wide. I mean, mention the genre, and there's a BTS track that fits whatever it is. People and critics may say that BTS is overrated but if they only dive deep and explore their discography, they would realize how their level of artistry is out of this world. 


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Words and main artwork by collene.


collene is 24-year-old self-proclaimed creative old soul who is deeply fascinated by the beauty of music, arts, books and poetry. Catch her wearing her bluetooth earphones on with either a phone or book on hand.




 



I may have been a little outdated with the music industry lately, but one thing is still for sure, countless new music are still always being released on a Friday — or maybe not just on a Friday, but every day — to comfort and console us especially during these trying times. It would take me about a month if I run them all down, so I listed and filtered out some of the new full-length and mini albums, and songs that I have mixed thoughts and opinions about. 


1. Minisode1: Blue Hour by TOMORROW X TOGETHER


Screenshot from Blue Hour Official Music Video

I hope it's safe to say that BTS actually paved the way for me to listen to TOMORROW X TOGETHER or TXT, even before they released this new mini album, as they are both under the same entertainment agency. As a casual music listener of this boy group, I'd be lying if I say I know a lot about them and how they come about Minisode1: Blue Hour. But as for my knowledge, this five-track mini album is their third release under their discography, following their second mini-album, The Dream Chapter: Eternity, which was released last May 2020. 


Listening for more than 8 hours to Minisode1: Blue Hour on loop after it was released last October 26 is an undeniable proof of how good this record is for a mini-album of a group which just debuted last year. In my opinion, the tracks in this mini-album fall under distinct flavors of pop excellency which make each of them stand out from the typical K-pop boyband sound that I usually hear. It's not that I've already heard all music that exist from all K-pop boy groups. These are mere opinions coming from my own K-pop encounter and observation. 


Moreover, while most of the songs give off a dance-inducing serotonin boost, I get this kind of teenage nostalgic vibes from two of the songs in this mini-album — Ghosting and Wishlist to be specific. These two songs remind me of the usual pop-rock band songs that I used to listen to when I was younger.  I'm not gonna name what song from which bands. You have to listen to these two songs first to figure it out for yourself. Perhaps, this could be one of the factors why I feel like there's a magnetic force pulling me towards listening to this mini-album all over again. It sounds so fresh and brand new yet so intimately familiar. Guilty as I may sound but this mini-album is really growing on me. I have to commend the team behind the music production of BigHit Entertainment as they have been so consistent in releasing songs for their artists that are both sonically and lyrically good. 


Recommended songs: ALL. The mini-album consists of only 5 tracks so why not listen to the entirety it? My personal favs though are Ghosting and Wishlist.


2. Playing Pretend in the Interim by Reese Lansangan


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From one Ghosting song to another one that I absolutely love as well. One of my favorite OPM indie sweethearts, Reese Lansangan, recently released a themed bite-sized album in lieu of the full-length album she's been cooking. Reese mentioned in her vlog that Playing Pretend in the Interim is her process of experimenting narratives and creating experiences through borrowed lens while wandering in the comforts of her home during a pandemic. Steering away from the songwriting process that artists usually go through, the five tracks in this EP are based on different histories and secondhand stories which actually reminded me of the theme Taylor Swift had with folklore. 


True enough, Reese admitted in her vlog how the release of folklore inspired her to get up and accomplish something in the middle of a chaos. Hence, Playing Pretend in the Interim; a thematic EP that didn't spin around her personal experiences alone. I actually love the concept of writing something from a different perspective. I also often go through a phase where my feelings and thoughts linger on a plateau; moments when I can't write anything at all because I can't squeeze out anything from my idle life. Thus, I stay idle with writing as well. I'm the type of person who writes based on personal experiences and encounters. Perhaps, I can explore writing from a borrowed lens as well?


Moreover, the EP sounds as mystical and calming as its digital artwork suggest it will be. My personal favorite is Ghostinga song about a ghost who is searching for a new home to live. Its groovy rhythm and playful verses really complement each other very well. I love reading the lyrics of it from the perspective of a ghost. It reminds me of the book Rooms by Lauren Oliver. 


Also known for her songs that would make you feel at home, the entirety of this EP suggests the same kind of vibe. This is why I love Reese Lansangan. Her music always makes me feel at home.  In addition, I also love the digital artwork for this EP! I love that each house represents each track from the EP. 



Recommended songs: 
ALL. The EP consists of only 5 tracks so why not listen to the entirety it? My personal fav is also Ghosting and Mall Rats.


3. positions by Ariana Grande


Screenshot from positions Official Music Video


Going to mainstream pop from a household name, pop royalty Ariana Grande released her sixth full-length album under Republic Records last October 30.  In the span of three years, Ariana has released three full-length studio album; and judging by the previous ones and the recent release of positions, I have to say that Ariana has been so consistent and prolific when it comes to her musicality and artistry. Unlike her pop peers Miley and Demi, who have been exploring and experimenting different genres whenever they get the chance to do so, Ariana stays true to her steamy pop and R&B persona that complements her delicate powerhouse vocals.


It's good that she's found her musical branding and footing which her audience admires her for, but consistently clinging to it stunts her growth as a versatile artist. Like most of her megawatt pop hits, the entirety of positions though is easy to listen to and bop with. The album is a collection of beautifully-mastered bops that anyone can vibe with excluding its clear-cut content. However, the sleek and sultry rhythm embedded on each track of this new album is selfsame with her previous ones. Thus, casual listeners like me would be extremely confused which era a track from this album really belongs to.


Overall, I love that I can listen to it when I just feel like it, but this album is not as impactful and impressing as one may have expected it to be. It's the usual Ariana Grande bop. Nothing new that screams "POP HIT" but there are songs I like that I can get used to. 


Recommended songs: obvious, positions, pov


4. Only Child by Sasha Sloan



Sasha Sloan has been one of my go-to indie/alternative artists to listen to since 2018. While I can relate with the poetry pressed in the verses of her songs, there are some thoughts on most of her songs that I completely disagree with. I guess when the artist's and my stand clash, it's important to understand where the artist is going and filter out their thoughts and ideas that you think are not good for you. 


Despite of the collision of most of our thoughts and ideas, I will not set aside her artistry sonically and lyrically speaking — especially in her debut album Only Child.  Her EP Self-portrait which was released last year still elicits a certain kind of emotion in me until today. Unexpectedly, here comes Only Child rushing in and pushing itself into the pile of emotions that I haven't fully gotten over yet. 


As a songwriter who has worked with household names like Katy Perry, John Legend and Camila Cabello, it's not surprising to know how lyrically good the entirety of Only Child is. Most of the songs on the album are clearly written from a personal experience which makes everything much more open and vulnerable than it already is. It's actually hard to pick a favorite out of it but Matter to You, Only ChildUntil It Happens to You and Someone You Hate stood out to me the most. On the other hand, Is It Just Me is a well-written song about collections of unpopular opinions that would immediately spark conversations from its listeners. It's not my cup of tea because there are unpopular opinions that I oppose to but I like the idea of it.


Recommended songs: 
Matter to You, Only Child, Until It Happens to You and Someone You Hate 

5. Commander In Chief by Demi Lovato

Screenshot from her BBMAs performance


This is not an EP or full-length album but this release from Demi Lovato deserves a spot here to be reviewed. I used to be one of her huge fans but time has turned my love into indifference. However, that does not mean I will not recognise it whenever she releases a material as impressive and impactful as all of her recent releases; I'm talking about I Love Me, I'm Ready, It's OK not to be OK —  especially Commander in Chief.

I've never seen any artist from her peers that went as bold as she is with Commander in Chief.  I'm fully aware that she's already been writing and releasing timely and relevant songs even before, but this is one of the most bravest moves she's ever done in her entire career. It could put her in a political danger; in a complex situation. However, she still chose to use her platform AGAIN to educate and inform people about the reality of the administration, not just in the United States but also in every nation. All she wanted was to raise awareness and encourage people to vote wisely. The thought alone gives me goosebumps.


It's sad though that even after 2 weeks, the official music video of the song has only more than 5 million views.  It seems that most people today really don't care about content anymore. People can keep on snubbing her all they want but no one can change her excellency with her craft.



Words and main artwork by collene.


collene is 24-year-old self-proclaimed creative old soul who is deeply fascinated by the beauty of music, arts, books and poetry. Catch her wearing her bluetooth earphones on with either a phone or book on hand.





Some artists purposely create melodies and lyrics to carefully or painfully shove in hard to swallow pills to their audience. On the other side of the spectrum, there are artists who just want to slap you with reality while dancing on your sweatpants to an electrifying beat. Although she has released heart-wrenching ballads, Norwegian indie-pop singer-songwriter Sigrid Raabe generally falls on the latter category of musicians.

Commonly seen in her music and performance videos on a denim jeans and a plain top, Sigrid's musical artistry steers away from her facade. Unlike other playful indie-pop artists, she offers a persona that is unadorned; basic and ordinary in entirety, but carries a statement that speaks volume on self-empowerment and self-assurance. While most of her lyrics aren't as poetic and ornate as that of written by the likes of Lorde and Robyn to be exact, the narrative that Sigrid expresses in each of her songs encapsulates a common denominator that is quite relatable and at the same time memorable to her audiencefans and casual listeners alike.

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The song Sucker Punch is one of the few songs from her record of the same name released in 2019 that is responsible for the discography expedition of some of her convinced listeners
I'm entirely speaking for myself. But as the time spent listening to Sigrid progresses, her songs like Strangers, Don't Feel Like Crying, and Basic are instant guilty pleasures. These songs are uniquely unforgettable and hard to skip. Their anatomy is constructed with conversational realities embedded on blocks of earworm electro-pop rhythm that is hard not to dance to midway to their entirety. Perfect when you are in your bedroom or while on a road trip alone.

While the original version of her songs are the perfect picks to add to your "I-don't-care-i'm-hurt-but-i'm-having-fun" Spotify playlist, the stripped version of her songs Strangers, Mine Right Now, Dynamite, and Plot Twist extract the same kind of emotion but different set of reaction. These songs were undoubtedly left out by the curators of the Sad Indie Spotify playlist. They are perfect companions during the dead of the night. 

Vocally-speaking, Sigrid also holds a unique range that is quite recognizable from her peers. Her control over her vocal capability and the various landscapes it explores are quite remarkable. Sigrid's prowess just effortlessly turns the mundane into magical. Unfortunately, both the artist and the art are sheltered from the attention of many. 

For your pleasure and convenience, here's a quick Spotify link to her songs from her debut LP, Sucker Punch:


Words and main artwork by collene.


collene is 24-year-old self-proclaimed creative old soul who is deeply fascinated by the beauty of music, arts, books and poetry. Catch her wearing her bluetooth earphones on with either a phone or book on hand.